ONE DAY WHEN IT IS MY TIME YOU WILL BE THERE WAITING FOR ME. JUST TO BE ABLE TO TOUCH YOU AGAIN AND LOOK INTO THOSE EYES THAT I MISS SO MUCH. I HAVE SO MUCH TO TELL YOU RONNIE , AND ONE DAY WE WILL SIT TOGETHER AGAIN AND TALK FOR HOURS. I HOPE YOU ARE WATCHING MEGAN AND J.J. THEY ARE SO BEAUTIFUL RONNIE AND I WILL NEVER LET THEM FORGET THEIRE PAPA. YOU WERE TAKEN TO SOON FROM US RONNIE AND IT IS SO HARD TO ACCEPT. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND MY LIFE IS EMPTY WITHOUT YOU. WE ARE BOTH SO SAD WITHOUT EACH OTHER. TAKE CARE MR BUTLER. MISS YOU FOREVER. XXXXX. JACIE.

ALL I DO IS THINK OF MY LIFE WITH YOU RONNIE. FROM THE MINUTE WEE MET. I WISH WE COULD DO IT ALL AGAIN. I MISS MY LIFE WITH YOU. YOU ARE SUCH A BEAUTIFUL MAN WITH A HEART OF GOLD. I WANT YOU HERE WITH ME RONNIE BUTLER. I AM SO SAD WITHOUT YOU. THINGS ARE REALLY HARD JUST NOW , BUT I KNOW YOU WILL BE HELPING ME AS MUCH AS YOU CAN. YOU WERE MY STRENGTH IN LIFE AND I AM SO WEAK WTHOUT YOU. I STILL NEED YOU TO TAKE CARE OF ME. AND I WILL NEED THAT FOREVER. I LOVE YOU MR BUTLER , COME SEE ME SOON. XXXXX. JACKIE.

THAT IS WHERE I WILL LOOK FOR YOU RONNIE, RIGHT BY MY SIDE. I AM REALLY STRUGGLING IN LIFE WITHOUT YOU. DO YOU MISS ME RONNIE? BECAUSE I MISS YOU SO SO MUCH. WHAT DO YOU DO EVERYDAY? I HOPE YOU ARE WITH MY MUM AND DAD AND LIZ AND OFCOURSE YOU'R OWN FAMILY TOO. YOU GAVE ME SO MUCH OF YOURSELF AND I NEED YOU BACK. WHAT A FANTASTIC HUSBAND YOU ARE. I HOPE YOU KNOW THAT AND THE KIDS COULDN'T HAVE HAD A BETTER FATHER THAN YOU. ALWAYS REMEMBER WHAT WE SAID TO EACH OTHER AT THE END, IT WILL BE IN MY HEART FOREVER, AS YOU WILL BE. PLEASE KEEP ME IN YOUR'S. I LOVE YOU RONNIE BUTLER. XXXX. JACKIE.

I AM SO IN LOVE WITH YOU RONNIE BUTLER AND ALWAYS WILL BE. YOU MADE ME SO HAPPY MY WHOLE LIFE. I MISS YOU SO MUCH IT IS UNBEARABLE. THE KIDS REALLY MISS YOU AND STILL NEED YOU HERE TO ADVISE THEM ON LIFE. CAN YOU HEAR ME TALK TO YOU RONNIE? MY LIFE WILL NEVER BE THE SAME WITHOUT YOU. IT HAS ALL CHANGED SO MUCH. SO MANY MEMORIES RONNIE, BUT I WANT MORE, IT'S NOT ENOUGH FOR ME. I NEED YOU , AND DON'T KNOW HOW I CAN DO THIS ALONE, AND BELIEVE ME RONNIE I HAVE NEVER FELT SO ALONE IN ALL MY LIFE. PLEASE STAY BY MY SIDE , I DON'T LIKE BEING ALONE. LOVE YOU MR BUTLER. XX. JACKIE. XXXX.

I CANNOT STOP CRYING FOR YOU RONNIE BUTLER. I NEED YOU HERE WITH ME TO STAY FOREVER. WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO WITHOUT YOU? I AM SO GLAD YOU CAME TO SEE LINDA, SHE FELT SO HAPPY TO HAVE SPOKEN TO YOU. THE THINGS THAT YOU TOLD HER HAVE MADE HER SO HAPPY. WE DON'T WANT YOU TO BE SAD IN HEAVEN RONNIE AND IF WE COULD BRING YOU HOME WE WOULD DO IT IN AN INSTANCE. WE CAN'T GET OVER MISSING YOU EITHER AND THAT WILL NEVER CHANGE. THE LOVE I HAVE FOR YOU MR BUTLER IS OVERWHELMING. I WANT YOU TO HOLD MY HAND AND SHOW ME THE WAY BECAUSE I AM SO LOST RIGHT NOW. I LOVE YOU RONNIE...... JACKIE. XXXXXX

RONNIE I AM SO SORRY I HAVE NOT BEEN ON TO WRITE TO YOU FOR A FEW DAYS. I HAVE BEEN SO DOWN AND LONELY AND FEELING SO BAD. I CAN'T CONCENTRATE ON ANYTHING BUT MY LIFE WITHOUT YOU. I AM SO IN LOVE WITH YOU RONNIE BUTLER AND MY HEART IS SORE FROM WANTING YOU. I FEEL SO EMPTY INSIDE AND I CAN'T SEE THE WAY AHEAD FOR ME. I AM SO WORRIED ABOUT YOU AND IT IS MAKING ME CRAZY. I WILL LOVE YOU FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE AND I WILL NEVER STOP WANTING OR MISSING YOU. LOVE YOU SO MUCH MR BUTLER...TALK TO ME PLEASE. .. JACKIE. XXX.

THANKYOU ESTHER FOR YOU'R KIND WORDS. HAVE A LOVELY 2012. LOVE JACKIE AND FAMILY. XX

HELLO MY DARLING. I CAN'T BELIEVE ANOTHER YEAR IS OVER WITHOUT YOU. I HAVE BEEN SO SAD OVER CHRISTMAS RONNIE. I AM MISSING YOU SO MUCH AND I AM SO LONELY WITHOUT YOU. I DON'T KNOW HOW TO BE HAPPY AGAIN AND I WANT YOU SO BADLY. I NEED TO TALK TO YOU RONNIE I WANT TO KNOW HOW YOU ARE AND WHAT YOU ARE DOING. YOU ARE THE LOVE OF MY LIFE AND I WILL BE YOU'R WIFE FOREVER. TELL ME YOU LOVE ME AGAIN, I MISS HEARING THOSE WORDS EVERYDAY. I LOVE YOU MR BUTLER . STAY WITH ME PLEASE. XXXX. JACKIE.

I AM SO WORRIED ABOUT YOU RONNIE, I HAVE THIS TERRIBLE FEELING THAT YOU ARE SAD AND LONELY AND IT IS BREAKING MY HEART. WE ARE ALWAYS GOING TO BE TOGETHER RONNIE, NOTHING WILL SEPARATE US, AND I MEAN NOTHING. WE HAVE BEEN TOGETHER SINCE WE WERE YOUNG, WE GREW UP TOGETHER, WE HAVE THREE BEAUTIFUL CHILDREN TOGETHER AND WE ARE STILL IN LOVE WITH EACH OTHER. YOU ARE AN AMAZING MAN RONNIE BUTLER AND YOU GAVE ME AND THE KIDS AN AMAZING LIFE. WE HAD OUR SHARE OF HICCUPS ALONG THE WAY , BUT YOU WERE ALWAYS THERE TO PUT IT ALL RIGHT AGAIN. YOU'LL NEVER KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU. PLEASE DON'T CRY RONNIE, I DO ENOUGH OF THAT FOR BOTH OF US. LOVE YOU RONNIE. XXXX. JACKIE.

I WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU RONNIE BUTLER. I AM HERE WHENEVER YOU WANT TO TALK TO ME , I'M ALWAYS HERE WAITING. JUST FOR YOU TO LET ME KNOW THAT YOU ARE STILL WITH ME. IF ONLY WE COULD TURN BACK TIME AND HAVE OUR 32 YEARS TO LIVE AGAIN. WE HAVE SO MANY MEMORIES TOGETHER. I AM SO IN LOVE WITH YOU STILL AND IT HURTS SO MUCH NOT BEING ABLE TO SAY THAT TO YOU'R FACE. EVERYTIME I CLOSE MY EYES I SEE YOU THERE AND IT MAKES ME WANT YOU EVEN MORE. I LOVE AND MISS YOU SO MUCH RONNIE YOU ARE MINE AND I AM YOUR'S...FOREVER. XXXX. JACKIE.

PLEASE COME SEE ME TONIGHT IN MY DREAMS RONNIE. NOT SEEING YOU AND TOUCHING YOU IS SO HARD FOR ME. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND MY HEART IS BREAKING FOR YOU. I CAN'T DO THIS WITHOUT YOU RONNIE. I DON'T KNOW HOW TO LIVE ANYMORE , I NEED YOU SO MUCH. I WANT TO TALK TO YOU AND I WANT YOU TO MAKE EVERYTHING OK AGAIN. TELL ME WHAT TO DO ? I LOVE AND MISS YOU RONNIE BUTLER. YOU ARE EVERYTHING TO ME AND ALWAYS WILL BE. LOVE YOU MR BUTLER. XXXXX. JACKIE.

I DON'T KNOW WHAT HAPPENED RONNIE? I STILL CAN'T GET MY HEAD ROUND THIS. I NEED YOU BACK IN MY LIFE, HOW CAN I DO THAT. WHERE ARE YOU RONNIE, WHERE HAVE YOU WENT? MY LIFE IS SO SAD NOW, AND I AM SO WORRIED THAT YOU'R LIFE IS SAD AND IT IS KILLING ME. YOU ARE STILL PART OF MY HEART AND SOUL, AND WE ARE STILL MAN AND WIFE. I LOVE BEING YOU'R WIFE AND I LOVE YOU MORE THAN YOU WILL EVER KNOW RONNIE BUTLER. I WISH WE COULD DO IT ALL AGAIN, EVERY SINGLE MINUTE OF THOSE 32 YEARS. I ADORE YOU MR BUTLER , YOU STILL GIVE ME BUTTERFLY'S WHEN I THINK OF YOU. XXXXX. JACKIE.XX.

MY WHOLE LIFE CONSISTS OF MISSING YOU RONNIE. IT'S BEEN 2 YEARS NOW AND I FEEL AS BAD TODAY AS I DID THEN. YOU FILLED MY WHOLE LIFE AND NOW IT IS SO EMPTY. MY HEART IS SORE AND I CAN'T STOP THE TEARS I CRY FOR YOU. WHAT IS YOU'R LIFE LIKE NOW RONNIE, I SO NEED TO KNOW WHAT YOU DO EVERYDAY. HAVE YOU TALKED TO GOD? IS HE NEVER GOING TO LET YOU COME HOME? I DON'T SUPPOSE HE IS. I WILL KEEP PRAYING FOR THAT RONNIE AND MAYBYE , ONE DAY....... ALWAYS REMEMBER I LOOK FOR YOU EVERYWHERE AND LISTEN FOR YOU EVERYDAY. I NEED YOU RONNIE BUTLER.XXXX. JACKIE. XXXXX.

ALL I DO IS WORRY ABOUT YOU RONNIE. I WISH YOU COULD LET ME KNOW YOU ARE ALRIGHT. YOU WERE NOT READY TO LEAVE THIS WORLD AND I WOULD NEVER HAVE BEEN READY TO LOOSE YOU. I STILL DON'T KNOW HOW TO COPE WITH THIS LIFE WITHOUT YOU. OUR HOUSE IS SO EMPTY NOW. THE KIDS HAVE ALL MOVED OUT AND YOU ARE NO LONGER HERE WITH ME. I SIT LOOKING AT YOU'R EMPTY CHAIR IMAGINING YOU SITTING READING THE PAPER AND THEN FALLING ASLEEP HALF WAY THROUGH IT. THEN YOU WOULD WAKE UP AND I WOULD MAKE US BOTH A CUP OF TEA AND WE WOULD TALK ABOUT EVRYTHING THAT WE DID THAT DAY. WE WOULD LAUGH ABOUT STUPID THINGS AND THEN WE WOULD WATCH SOME TELLY AND GO TO BED TOGETHER AT THE END OF THE DAY. I MISS IT ALL SO MUCH RONNIE. I MISS MY LIFE WITH YOU. I LOVE YOU MR BUTLER, NEVER FORGET THAT. XXXX. JACKIE.